Here you have a girl still trying to figure out what she wants out of life, currently just a mess of indecisiveness :). That is all.
"I always was an unusual girl, my mother told me that I had a chameleon soul. No moral compass pointing me due north, no fixed personality. Just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean. And if I said that I didn’t plan for it to turn out this way I’d be lying..." - Lana Del Rey